i am dancing on the line of who i am and who i want to be.

i am dancing with a train.

i am playing with fire.
my excitement grows stronger every second. the adrenaline rush has progressed from a stream to a bone crushing avalanche.

I'm ready to get right in everyone's hostile little faces who tell me i'm not good enough, im not right, im not perfect, not enough for them. dare them to put a gun to my head and paint the walls with my brains.

bragging and laughing at death because under my wrist lies my pounding pulse and under my ribs lies my pounding heart. the stormy, husky, brawling laughter of youth. half naked. sweating. proud.

indescribable, unshakable, immortal.

welcome to power. control. liberation. freedom.

my instability makes me stable. my emotional wreckage gives me wings.

incredible. absolutely incredible.




im back.


and i couldn't be happier about it.